written tragedies

naks

2008-01-08T06:23:00.000-08:00

napansin ko lang, ang lungkot pala ng blog kong ito. kung hinde malungkot, puno ng galit. kaya for a change naman, lalagyan ko na to ng posts na hindi tungkol sa lablyp, isyu sa barkada, tsismis, at kung ano-ano pang bagay na hindi naman sa walang kwenta pero yung tipong masyadong madrama. at ewan.

pero sa totoo lang tinatamad na ko mag-post. ang tagal ko na pala hindi nakakapagsulat dito, marami ng nangyari pagkatapos ng huling entry ko. at ayoko na isa isahin. it doesn't really matter din naman.

and about my previuos posts ulet, gusto ko sana sila burahin kasi nahihiya na ko pag may ibang nagbabasa. pero kapanghinayang lang. gusto ko rin kasi may binabalik-balikan. pero may binura na rin ako marame rame din. ang labo ko noh? kaya wag niyo na lang pansinin yung mga kadramahan diyan. anyway, may freedom of speech naman sa pinas diba. kaya kung may reklamo kayo, bahala kayo! haha. basta ako magsusulat ako ng gusto ko.

babay muna!

she thinks

2007-09-12T22:39:00.000-07:00

he thinks she's okay
but she thinks she's not.
she got a lot of things to say,
but she can't find a way..

he says he love her,
she felt nothing but empty phrases

she's trying to fight,
but he's not fighting for her

she picked him up
he couldn't stand up for her.

now she's in doubt
and he's not even the least assuring..

she used to be his priority
now he feels nothing but apathy

she's trying hard to please him
he did nothing but pushed her aside

she misses him,
it seems he doesn't.

and now she feels so weak,
he's not there to pick her up
this time around..

dare me?

2007-08-25T22:50:00.000-07:00

Natatangahan talaga ako sa situation namin ngayon. Pero kung tanga ako, mas tanga siya. At least I'm aware about everything. But she has no idea what was really happening.

I despised her more and more each day. I can't deny that. I can be mean at times. I'm wishing all the worst things for her. I know I'm winning. But then I want her out--- completely out. And I can't wait for that day. I found her so stupid. Dahil sinong taong nasa matinong pag-iisip ang magpapakamatay? D-uh! That's madness! Lalo na kung ganon pa yung situation niyo. Payong kaibigan lang ha, try to see a psychiatrist. There's

something wrong with your brain, sweetie. Tsk. Seriously. Anxiety lang yan or depression or baka nastress-out ka lang. Grow up girl. Tanggapin mo na kasi na iniwan ka. Ganyan ka ba talaga kadesperada? OMG.

Im just enraged. I just need to let these things out.

Maybe I should just pity you...you're so pathetic.

But I can't help it. You have no right to hold back a person when that person wants to go. Are you really that desperate? You can have him, but not his heart. That is something you can't take away from us..

You can't have anything you want every time. You just have to accept that. You were born without him. You learned to breathe without him. So don't say you can't live without him.

Nananahimik na kasi kami dito, nangugulo pa kayo. Ako kasi naaagrabyado sa inyo eh. It was so unfair. Hindi niyo ba naisip na may third party pa dito. What if I've done the same? And my family had done the same? Makikipagtalo pa rin kayo para dun sa bagay na yun? Hah! How stupid!

"Scorpions don't move unless irritated."

got it?

you're none of my concern girl.

bahala ka kung anong gusto mo gawin.

but girl, you stepped on my foot.

and i won't let you get away with that.

nadali mo ko eh.

kaya hindi ako basta basta mananahimik dito.

Minsan naisip ko, what if i've done the same? Pano kung nagpaka-loka rin ako. Pero kung ginaya kita, edi wala rin tayong pinagkaiba. You're someone I would hate to be...

I'm just mad. Oh not only mad, but enraged!

fuckshit.punyeta.tangina! magmumura ako hanggat gusto ku,blog ku to gumawa ka ng iyo.

you should have killed yourself last time.

that would settle all of this.

die bitch! (credits kay reg)

(P.S. got a problem with this? i don't care. i'm just expressing myself. why are you reading this anyway? buzz off.)

desiderata

2007-08-16T20:06:00.000-07:00

Go placidly amidst the noise and haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly;

and listen to others,even the dull and the ignorant;

they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,

they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,

you may become vain and bitter;

for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;

it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs;

for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;

many persons strive for high ideals;

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself

.Especially, do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love;

for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment

it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,

gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,

be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,

no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,

whatever you conceive Him to be,

and whatever your labors and aspirations,

in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

~Desiderata, Max Ehrmann

stop struggling.

2007-08-13T04:43:00.000-07:00

If you're
not sure where you stand in someone's life, it's best to leave things behind so
that if they drop you off, it will be easier to forget them. Don't waste time
waiting for nothing, when efforts are not recognized, it's best to just give
things up, you've done your part, let them do
theirs..

A Song for You

2007-08-11T22:01:00.000-07:00

you say you're numb

i'll make you feel the pain

i'll make you taste

the sweet wine of revenge..

if songs can kill

i'll gladly sing for you

this song is for you

(i'm singing for you..)

well can you feel the words

cutting deep into your flesh

can you feel my teeth

pressing on your back?

but you are already in hell.

2007-08-11T21:53:00.000-07:00

*****

roses are red

violets are blue

sugar is sweet

and so are you..

but the roses are wilting,

the violets are dead,

the sugar bowl's empty,

and so is your head.

After you, my love,

my only prize

would be a bullet between your eyes.

Kind, intelligent, loving and hot

these describe everything your not.

What inspired this fabulous rhyme?

two parts gin

one part lime.

My feelings for you,

no words can tell,

except maybe,

"go to hell.."

****